No Matter Where We Go...

So, I don't do this whole journal thing anymore, and I don't expect anyone to read this, but I guess thats why I feel comfortable posting this on here. For those of you who don't know, I live in Birmingham now. I have since November. I love it. The friends I have here are the best I have ever had, and its a great town, but there are just two people missing.

The following is an email I JUST sent to my mom and dad. If you are reading this, post your favorite memories of your parents. I could write a the longest, richest, most beautiful story about the 23 years I have been around my parents. I love them.

Hey guys. How are you? I have been wanting to write this email for about a week now, but haven't for fear that you guys would to sad and mushy, haha. I didn't plan on writing it tonight either, but I watched Elizabethtown by myself and it made me think of you guys. So, what I'm trying to say is, for the past week or so I have been trying to write an email about how much I miss you guys.

The other day I was acting very distant towards Kyrie and my friends and finally that night Kyrie asked what was wrong and I just burst into tears. I couldn't help it, and I cried out to Kyrie and told her that I wanted my mom and dad. At that moment, out of all the church trips, trips with friends, visits to Newburgh and even a year away at WKU, I missed you more then ever. I miss my bedroom. I miss sitting in the TV room with you guys watching ER, or Everwood, or whatever. I missed tv trays, and lunch at Bellacinos. I missed your hugs. I missed your fights. I missed your faces and your looks. I missed your voice and your touch. I missed my mommy and daddy.

Don't get me wrong, I love Birmingham. I love the city, and my friends here are some of the best I have ever had, but its missing the two most important things I have ever had in my life. Its two things that no friends, no city, no buildings, no apartment, no nothing could outmatch. Its my parents. I realized that I will never be home no matter where I live because you won't be there.

And my eyes are filling up with tears again as I write this, and I just can't make them stop. Its sad really. A boy who is almost 24 years old is writing to his parents about how he misses living with them and being with them everyday. Sometimes I wish I had a time machine and could back to being a little boy with you Mom when we would go anywhere in the van. I didn't care cause I was with you, or Dad, when we would drive back from Huntsville and listen to the Big Chill and Carmina Buerauna. Or the times we went to the smokies together. I wish I could relive those times and freeze time while doing so.

I just want you to know that when I don't see your faces everyday that there is a whole in my day, that it is never complete. I love you both so much and thank you so very much for raising me to be this great, caring, loving, sincere guy I am. I learned from the best. I love you both so much and can't wait to see you Monday. I better stop writing this, its getting a little to mushy...who am I kidding...its already mushy and I don't care.

Mom and Dad...you are my life. I love you.
Kyle

I'm moving to Birmingham in November. Excited.

The new Ryan Adams record is hands down one of the best records I have ever heard in my life.


I've got a Halloweenhead.

Its been a while since I have posted anything on here so I will catch anyone who still reads this thing up on my life.

I finally moved out of my parents house in November. I live in these great apartments now with my girlfriend (will get to that shortly). I miss seeing my parents on a daily basis but I will be 23 this year so its about time that happened. I live across the street from my best friend so thats always great as well...one of not many things that still make me feel young.

I have a girlfriend. Her name is Kyrie. I have wanted to be with her since the end of March/beginning of April. We got really close between then and now but for different reasons we just couldn't be together, but those reasons have changed and we are together now and very happy. I love seeing her everyday and she makes me the happiest I have ever been.

The whole band thing is up and going. We don't play very often...or practice at that matter. I wish we could do it more, but we are all just so busy with our own personal things. We played a show last week and got a good response but there is just something holding us back. We all decided to write a slightly different style so hopefully that will help.

I still work at Bama Fever and still love it. Everyone that works there are great people and its just a fun place to work. Its up there with GAP as my favorite job.

I miss alot of people and places latley. I miss Indiana and the Nashville I knew two and three years ago. I miss being a little kid hanging out with my cousins at Kentucky Lake and in Indiana every weekend. Its just the same and as immautre as it sounds I hate growing up.

I am hopefully going back to school this fall. Maybe finally I can get going somewhere in my life and stop staying stagnant.

I guess that is all for now. I hope all are well.

Kyle